Unable to post recently

I'm not completely sure what is wrong w/our laptop, but I have not been able to post directly to our blog for over a week now. Every time I log on, the computer shuts down. Weird, huh? And I've been trying to post new pics, but no luck there, either.   Anyway, just wanted to share what I've been meditating on lately; a song I listened to on the way home from Thanksgiving in MO...more on that later, too!   "Even When" I may not know, what tomorrow holds for me... I may find that days ahead are hard for me...   ...... Even when I don't understand; even when I can't see Your plan; I will never cease to lift up my hands; I worship You, I worship You, my God.   I had the lyrics from the CD case at one point this week, but have misplaced them for now...imagine that!!   We are learning, day by day, to trust Him. I had another dream last night that DanNi spoke in a complete sentence. Meredith was there, and we just looked at each other. I wanted to jump up and down, do a little dance, and shout for joy; but in my mind, in the dream, I told myself to remain calm, and act like it was not big deal, so as to not scare DanNi.   As I think about what I just typed....having a dream about one of my daughters talking....that seems so basic, so common, to most people...but for us, this is our life now. Daily we wait in anticipation, that DanNi will become more and more comfortable in her new life, that she will be relaxed enough to speak.   She still is not initiating any speech, but she will respond, especially if we give her 'the look' with a one-word answer. I am grateful for that, even though it would be nice to have more from her, but for now, we will take what we can get. This is definitely a test of faith for us all....some days we do well, other days, not so well. It's a daily, moment-by-moment reliance on Him for strength and patience, because 'in the flesh', from my perspective, living this is impossible. At times the odds seem insurmountable, but I know He has not given us more than we can handle, because '....if our God is for us, who can stand against us; and if OUR GOD IS FOR US, WHAT CAN STAND AGAINST???   Did you get that? If our God is for us, there is NOTHING too big for Him...not a daughter who will not talk; not the overcoming grief of losing a child; not the devastation of a divorce; not the diagnosis of cancer; not the loss of a job; not a wayward child; not a spouse who is not a believer; NOTHING is too big for Him; and in Him is my hope and trust, because I cannot do this in my own strength.   So, even though I have NO CLUE what His plan and purpose is in this, I believe one day we will know the big picture...we may not know until He returns, but I know these days of trials are not worthless. I pray that out of this, at least we will have 3 girls, who one day, will know what it's like to have lived through tough days, and have survived on His strength alone; which will get them through tough things later on in their lives.   Again, we appreciate all the kind thoughts, words and prayers offered to our family. They have meant the world to us and we talk about them often at home, as we remind one another of the goodness of God, demonstrated through the body of Christ. Stephanie Bass Psalm 139 http://bassfamilyadoptionjourney.blogspot.com