Waiting....

waiting.....waiting.....waiting......I. am. not. good. at. waiting.
Why? Because it makes me uncomfortable. The unknown is scary.
However, I know these things:
Psalm 27:14 and Isaiah 40:30-31 talk about waiting on the Lord.
Psalm 46:10 tells me to be still and know that HE is God.
Then, Psalm 90:4 tells us that a thousand years to Him is like a day......oh, please, NO, Lord. Not a thousand years. HOWEVER, it has most certainly been a thousand days for us.....yes, yes, it has.
I just looked at the calendar. It has been 1,000: o-n-e  t-h-o-u-s-a-n-d days roughly, since we started the paperwork to bring our oldest daughter home in October 2009.

That realization hit me the other day as I've contemplated the suffering and persecution we have faced, from multiple sources, over the last ONE THOUSAND days. Has it really been that long? Yes, yes, it most certainly has. In case you were wondering, one thousand days is roughly 2 years and 9 months. And I think about the Israelites who wandered for 40 years.....i. would. have. most certainly. DIED. Lemme just say that I am thankful God did not reveal all that to me then, because I would have RUN, sprinted, like my life depended on it, the other way! And we would not have our sweet oldest daughter, who just the other day said something to me that almost put me on the floor, related to our current situation. The wisdom the Lord has given her, based on her past circumstances, revealed in that one, short, simple comment is astounding.

There are no words to adequately express all that is going through my heart and my mind. I can assure you of this, if you are pursuing an adoption, you betta put your big girl pants on and HANG on!!!! Hang on for dear life. Because you now have a HUGE target on your head and heart and Satan will do anything, and everything....he will use any tactic and any person, to try to distract you, tear you down, destroy your family, and your marriage. Believe me. Just PLEASE believe what I am saying.

Has it been worth it? Honestly, on some days, I'd have said 'no'. But in my heart, I will always say 'yes'. Saying 'yes' to Him is always worth every heartache, tear, and trial. Why? He died for me. He gave His very life so I could know Him. My children know Him. My husband knows Him. and that. is. all. that. matters.

And in case you are wondering....we will still do what He has called us to do....regardless. No fire from hell, or scheme of man, can ever pluck us from His hand...so we continue on, daily in His peace and strength.