For those of you who know our family, you know we've been going through a lot lately. Through our families and true friends who continue to reach out to us via different modes of communication and prayers, we really, really appreciate you. It's in those moments when we receive a word of affirmation or encouragement, that we feel the love of Christ carried out by the Body.
I sure have learned a lot over the last few weeks and I'm slowly processing everything. Most days my mind is constantly racing....between home and family responsibilities, work, job-hunting, finding time to exercise, staying connected spiritually to the Vine, keeping up with what's going on in the world, etc.. However, He constantly reminds me of Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know that I AM God."
Honestly, that is hard for me most days. I have a VERY hard time sitting still. Ask anyone who knows me well. The week my parents and sister and nephew were here (while Matthew was in Africa), I was running around like a madwoman. I know I can't control everything and many days I wish I could because in my feeble mind I think I can fix it. I trust in His perfect plan, but that doesn't mean I don't ask Him a lot of tough questions. He can handle it, though, 'cause He's God!
I have learned there are some things this side of heaven that will never be fixed.....starting with my broken heart. His wounds from the Cross have applied a healing salve to the deepest cuts, but the scars will be there forever. Perhaps one day our story of hope and redemption, that He is writing even still, will be known.
Please be encouraged that He knows your deepest hurts, whatever they may be. He waits for us to completely surrender, so He can show Himself to be enough. I guess that's what I have to say for now.....
Stephanie, I just read your blog. Thank you for including me. I love you and your precious family. I will continue to pray for God's favor for you.
ReplyDeleteYou don't need for me to remind you to trust in His timing because I know that you are doing just that....but maybe you do need to be reminded that we are here if you need us and that we pray many times daily for you, Matthew & the girls
ReplyDeleteOne thing was said last week at church that I can't forget...Gods will doesn't have to be perfect TO me to be perfect FOR me. While there are days I know we wish WE could write our story, I'm so glad we don't. Praying for His peace to come over you all. I think of you all the time. Call if you ever need anything.
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